Thursday, July 31, 2008

An alternate look at failure.

Every three days this can be found in the backyard.  I have mentioned before that Lucy wears cloth diapers.  What I failed to include is why.  Why it took me months before I finally gave in.  Why what seems so "green" and "trendy" right now is not one of my favorite things.  She wears cloth because her buns are allergic to a compound that is in every single disposable diaper.  Trust me.  I tried them all.  I tried every cream, every remedy, every thing possible to avoid this.  My sweetie endured months of bleeding rashes before her selfish mom gave in.  Now don't get me wrong.  I have great respect for the earth, I do tons of other things every single day to cause it less harm.  I just didn't feel all too bad about using disposables.  But it is what it is.  Now I have gotten in a rhythm and have a great system.  Washing them isn't so horrible.  They are very soft, safe and super cute.  I also love the fact that I haven't spent a penny on diapers in over a year.  That is bunches of money.  But I also pridefully was convinced that Lucy would be potty trained by her second birthday.  That day has come and gone.  She simply is not ready.  It took just one tearful and maddening day to figure that out.  She didn't get the memo.  Her Fuzzi Bunz are just fine with her.

I mainly wanted her out of diapers because of the sheer volume of traveling we are doing this summer.  Mainly because it is a cruise ship rule that any child who is not potty trained cannot go to any activities or swim in any pool.  My little adventurous fish will have to sit and watch as all of her cousins swim and hang out with the adults as the kids go to the fun activities on the ship.  I moaned, groaned and complained about this fact for weeks when I realized the potty training wasn't happening.  Little by little my heart began to change.  My little Lulu has never had me all to herself.  In a few months when the new baby comes my time will be even more divided.  I am making the choice to look at this as a true blessing.  That I get to spend hours with my sweet girl alone.  Give her the attention that Halley got for the first two years of her life.  I can sacrifice my free time to pour into her wild and tender heart.  I simply cannot wait.  There is nothing I look forward to more.  No other time in her life will she have all of me.  I am planning to savor every second.
What I am not planning on doing is bringing the cloth diapers with me.  I am planning on using this entire tub of Butt Paste and hope for the best.

6 comments:

  1. Awww. I will say lots of prayers her little butt will make it in diapers and be rash free so you can enjoy every moment!
    :)

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  2. Poor girl...and poor mama!! I can't even imagine using cloth diapers at this point in my life. I totally get the whole "green movement" and as you, try to do my share when I can, but cloth diapers when it isn't out of necessity?! I am right there with ya sister! Hopefully over time her lil' bum has gotten less sensitive and when you take your trip she'll do great with her Butt Paste and disposable diapers!!

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  3. Oh I hope LuLu doesn't have issues....so you can both enjoy your vacation! My friend started with cloth diapers....didn't even last a week! And, she even had the diaper service....nope, she couldn't handle it...I give you credit, I really do!

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  4. hi there! I stumbled across your blog a few weeks ago and have really been enjoying it!

    I just wanted to tell you that I too was horribly allergic to diapers just like your daughter. I am now 26 and am not allergic to a single thing (that I know of!) and do not even have very sensitive skin. Just thought that might give you some encouragement for the future!

    heather

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  5. I've never thought of being allergic to diapers....yikes!! I'm really interested in learning more about cloth diapers but to be honest I'm very frightened. My 21 month old twins are still not potty trained and I'm due with another lil' one in September. 3 kids in diapers isn't really affordable. I'm going to have to look into cloth diapers I think. Or until my husband forces me to look into them...lol! Hope you have fun on your cruise!! :o)

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  6. hey julie,
    came across your blog through a friend of mine, lindsey (imperfect). you and i used to hang in back in the days of saddelback with the whole bulkhead crew, sunday night bible study in mv, etc.

    just wanted to say that your post about spending time with Lucy was too sweet. a gentle reminder of savoring your kids and each season.

    I am 1 week overdue with my second daughter and have had the joy of spending these last precious, lingering days with my #1, emery shae. there is a reason and God keeps speaking to me, "Wait on the LORD; be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; wait, I say on the LORD!" Psalm 27:14

    be encouraged - the potty training will come. until then, enjoy your girl just as she is and your family vacation extravaganza too!

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